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I am not the job I do
I am not the poems I write

I am not the city I live in
I am not the party I vote for

I am not the team I cheer
I am not the brand I wear

I am not the car I drive
I am not the God I pray to 

If so many things I am not
If not all the things I’ve got

Then who indeed am I 

I am the son my parents had
I am the boy who loved and lost

I am the man my spouse married
I am a father to my lovely daughters

I am the kind who holds the door
I am the guy who is a friend in need

I am the colleague who gives it all
I am the boss who takes the rap

Is that all that I am
Is that all I have ever been

Then who indeed am I 

All of the above 
And so much more

I am much much more 
Than what I am not

I am the sum total 
Of my opinions and thoughts 

I am what I observe and perceive 
I am the goals I couldn’t achieve
 
I am all the good that I do
I am the favours I take

I am the mistakes I make
I am the lesson I should have learnt

This is all I know 
Of me thus far

In a vacant mood
I often wonder

If not this long list
Of who I am and who I’m not

Then who indeed am I

ख़याल कुछ यूँ आया कि बहुत दिन हुए कुछ लिख़ा नहीं उसी के हाथ थामे ख़याल एक दूसरा आया कि बीते दिनों लिखने लायक कुछ दिखा नहीं अब ख़यालों का कुछ ऐसा है कि एक-दो पे कभी सिलसिला रुका नहीं फिर लगा कि इस बात पे ही कुछ कह देतें हैं कम होता है कि लिखने बैठें और क़ाफ़िया मिला नहीं दम भर ले शायरी का जितना भी बात ग़ाफ़िल ये मुख़्तसर सी है कि शायर तेरी भरी तिजोरी भी बिना लफ़्ज़ों के समझो ख़ाली ही है

Who Am I?

Khayal (ख़याल)